It is 3:30 in the morning. I am not tired. I am hungry. For PB and J on soft, new bread.
I am bipolar. I am a mom to three fun and funny middle schoolers. I am also a high level executive at one of the worlds largest companies. I was diagnosed 14 years ago and on various medications ever since. I am mostly well. And always scared as I know what the abyss really feels like. It terrifies me.
I have an amazing husband. I remember hearing somewhere that some ridiculous percentage of marriages with a bipolar person end in divorce. My husband's dedication has kept our marriage strong. I know I am lucky.
I know the inside of a psych ward. I know the burden of stigma and secrecy. I know the feelings of inadequacy when I have to question whether my feelings or perception are "real" or warped.
I have wanted to write about this for a long time. Partly because it is carthartic for me, but more importantly, I feel I need to share that people with diagnosed mental illness have plenty of tools available, and can be successful
I look forward to our shared efforts so thank you for honoring me with your time. More to come. For now, however, I am going back to bed.
I am bipolar. I am a mom to three fun and funny middle schoolers. I am also a high level executive at one of the worlds largest companies. I was diagnosed 14 years ago and on various medications ever since. I am mostly well. And always scared as I know what the abyss really feels like. It terrifies me.
I have an amazing husband. I remember hearing somewhere that some ridiculous percentage of marriages with a bipolar person end in divorce. My husband's dedication has kept our marriage strong. I know I am lucky.
I know the inside of a psych ward. I know the burden of stigma and secrecy. I know the feelings of inadequacy when I have to question whether my feelings or perception are "real" or warped.
I have wanted to write about this for a long time. Partly because it is carthartic for me, but more importantly, I feel I need to share that people with diagnosed mental illness have plenty of tools available, and can be successful
I look forward to our shared efforts so thank you for honoring me with your time. More to come. For now, however, I am going back to bed.
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